We are into the second month of the year, and I really do have some fun things to blog about, but right now I am just not feeling it.
I will not go into detail, but this blog has been my record for our family, so I will briefly mention my feelings here.
I am to a point where my hope is diminishing, but yet to type or think it makes me feel EXTREMELY guilty because of the tender mercies I and my family have received over the last months.
I keep wondering how much will be enough. How much do we have to sacrifice before it is finally enough. What more can I do but pray for mercy--for a miracle. I endlessly search the scriptures for solace---for peace. I’m trying so HARD to find any answer; but right now I believe I’m going through that fire, which hopefully will give me far more understanding and knowledge than I have right now, and I WILL be grateful for it.
Just right now. I. am. not. feeling. it.
